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Alhamdulillah, Masih Allah beri nikmat sihat hari ini. Alhamdulillah, Masih Allah beri peluang untuk beribadah hari ini. Alhamdulillah,  Masih Allah beri ruang untuk perbaiki diri. Alhamdulillah, Masih Allah tegur, dimana kurangnya aku sebagai hamba. Alhamdulillah, Masih Allah beri nikmat aman pada Malaysia sekarang ini. Alhamdulillah, Masih Allah ingatkan aku untuk bersiap menghadapi mati. Alhamdulillah, Masih Allah beri aku nikmat beribu bapa. Alhamdulillah,  Masih Allah sayang aku dengan nikmat saudara. Alhamdulillah, Masih Allah kasihkan aku dan beri aku sahabat2 sejati. Alhamdulillah, Masih Allah kurniakan aku sihat untuk menjalani baki usia. Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah. Tak akan pernah aku berhenti bersyukur pada segala nikmat ini Ya Allah. Tak akan mungkin pernah. Sombong lah aku, Riak lah aku, Takbur lah aku, Jahilnya aku. Andai pernah aku berhenti mensyukuri nikmat dari en...

O Allah, I see tears today. As of the ones I see yesterday. And many days before. I see a man, Running from the bomb dropped in front of his feet, But not backing, and still trying to win against the army. Is it the army of men? No, its the Shaytan in the face of a man. I glance to the side, And see a woman. Grieving over a small body in front of her, Covered with blood, And does not seem to breathe anymore. I stole the sight of another direction, Wonderful children sitting on earth, with eyes filled with determination I see them study under the hot blaze. before I heard sound of deadly call. Everything goes dark. When eyes open, I want to see them again. But what's left was dust. Pieces of clothes. And bleeding soil. I can't watch it anymore. I can't watch these anymore. O Allah, protector of all living. Please let me have the chance to set my feet on Gaza, and lend me the strength to do anything I can to help our family there.

~Bukan mudah untuk berubah, tapi lebih susah untuk kekal dalam lembah yang makin usang. Assalamualaikum. Aku rasa, mula dengan post ini, aku akan menaip dengan nada yang bukan aku. Ritma yang bukan aku. Dan stigma yang bukan aku. Kerana aku rasa, sehingga fasa perubahan ini selesai, aku tidak harus menjadi aku yang lama, dan belum pantas menjadi aku yang baharu. Titik. Boleh buat skrip pentas tak? :3 hahaha Lama tak jumpa. Hai blog, hai readers. Nak kata xdatang menaip sebab tak ada internet, itu menipu la namanya. Duduk rumah sewa internet laju masyaAllah. Tak study haku. Idea pon ade la jugak...tapi time2 ade idea tu la jari jemari ni pulak yang malas menaip. Time tangan dah gatal gatal nak menaip, otak tiba-tiba blank. Kosong tak ada apa. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . macam sekarang. Tajuk tadi apa ea?

If you have a problem, you know you can solve it by yourself. By hook or by crook, you just have to. Get off a cliff if you have to. But when the problem comes from your friend, now what should you do? The problem is not initially from you right? Here's the situation. I don't effin' care what are you going to do with your life. Like it was related to mine. Let me tell you once: it doesn't. And I don't care if you want to handle it your way. I don't care how many time you lied to your parents. I don't care how many times have you lied to us. Shit on our face. I just don't care. I know I used to care but not anymore. Not after all this time we care and you keep on lying and pretending. So I just don't care anymore. You want to know why? Because we used to think you just need some space, some time to sit back and relax. Reflect. On whatever you do. But you did not. You're so happy we let you do what you want and you've fallen d...

I NEVER KNEW WHEN DID I START LOVING YOU, BUT THE MOMENT I KNOW I’VE DROWNED TOO DEEP TO BE SAVED. MAYBE IT WAS WHEN I SEE YOU ON STAGE, PLAYING THAT MUSICAL INSTRUMENT YOU LOVE, BECAUSE I KEPT ON LONGING FOR MORE EVER SINCE. OR MAYBE WHEN I HEARD YOU ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP, BECAUSE I FELL QUITE HARD ONTO MY FEET. OR WHEN EVERYTIME I SEE YOU WITH HER, MY HEART WAS TORN INTO PIECES, AND I CAN HARDLY BREATHE. OR WAS IT WHEN I HEARD OF YOUR BREAK-UP, THAT I WAS FEELING UPSET BECAUSE YOU HURT SO MUCH. AND MAYBE IT WAS THAT TIME WHEN WE MET, AND YOU SHOWER ME WITH YOUR SMILE, I HAVE GLITTERS IN MY HEART, I THOUGHT I SEE YOUR EYES SPARKLING. OR MAYBE IT WASN’T ALL THOSE MOMENTS, MAYBE I DON’T NEED A REASON, YOU JUST MAKE ME FALL FOR YOU. YEAH. YOU READ IT RIGHT. I WAS, AND STILL AM FALLING FOR YOU.

dalam sejuta kawan. banyak yang akan datang waktu kau senang. separuh dari yang banyak itu, mungkin akan muncul waktu kau susah. tapi dalam yang separuh tu, berapa banyak yang akan datang seka air mata kau? berapa mulut yang akan senyum dan pujuk kau? berapa tangan yang akan tarik kau? berapa banyak yang mampu tenangkan hati kau? permata permata ni, mutiara mutiara ni, tak akan pernah kau nampak, sampai saat jatuhnya ujian berat atas bahu kau. permata permata ni, mutiara mutiara ni, sinarnya tak kan kau lihat, sampai kau betul jatuh dalam gelap. hari ni, aku jumpa permata aku. mutiara aku. dalam sentuhan kalbu seorang kawan. yang selama ni aku sangkakan. cuma biasa sebagai insan. rupanya aku punya permata istimewa. aku yang tak nampak. butanya aku.

Assalamualaikum :) Kalau korang ade kawan yang annoying, apa yang korang akan buat? Kalau khalis, ini yang khalis akan buat: first thing first, khalis jadi sedar diri, yang annoying tu sebenarnya bukan dia, tapi khalis sendiri. Seriously, who are you to say your friend tu annoying ke tak? If she really is, point yourself to the mirror and belek balik diri seniri tu. Are you good enough? When you have one annoying person in your friend collection, you must have been something like them, kan? Sape yang akan kawan dengan orang yang dia rasa tak boleh nak 'masuk' dengan dia punya thinking style, kan? I don't know about others, but I won't be able to get close with people that have a 360degree turn of life works from me. Bukan nak menyombong, dan khalis bukan jenis suka pilih kawan, but khalis pilih dengan siapa khalis patut rapat. Well, kalau itu adalah sombong pada pandangan anda, khalis tak mampu nak cakap ape la. Maaf. :) Kenapa tiba tiba keluar cerita pasal kawan ...